Vida

What if life is a dream and when we die we wake up? What if life is exactly the opposite of what you thought about life? What if life is just a beautiful experience and nothing more and nothing less? What if life is not a journey, but it's simply just a path and you can plant a few flowers at the edge of the path? What if life is just happening? What if you can not control anything at all, because your energy just leads you and you have to follow and the more you try to resist and then struggle the more intensive it gets? What if energy is the only thing that connects us, because the universe is communicating through us? We are the most beautiful expression. We are a fucking gorgeous paintings. We are not just human beings having a spiritual experience - we are spiritual beings having a human experience.

The more you believe in life and the more you believe in love the more it happens. You yourself are the omniscient narrator of your book of life. Your book of love. You can deeply wish for your feelings and emotions and wait them to enter your presence. There is no other moment than the presence, because the past is already dead and the future is yet to come. So actually we cannot die in the future, because we can just die in the moment. And we are dying everyday. And we are born every day. We have the chance to change. We are able to make a change. Changes. Challenges. Chances. 

Your life becomes a masterpiece when you learn to master peace. "There is no path to peace. Peace is the path" - Buddha. And your best teacher is your last mistake. But there are no mistakes at all. There are just lessons. We are able to learn lessons and look forward. We can grow. We can evolve. We can transcend. I know that you wish for certain things and that you desperately wait them to enter your life, but you are just not ready yet. The universe is so perfect that you can trust in the process. In your process. If it's not happening now, tomorrow or next week you are simply not ready for it. You have to be patient, because in otherwise you are just suffering. Patience is the calm acceptance that things can happen in a different order than the one you have in your mind. Just trust. Relax in the moment, live in the presence. We are all beautiful souls in beautiful bodies. Our souls do not speak any human language. They communicate to us through symbols, metaphors, visions, poetry, deep feelings, breathing and everyday magic. Just energy. 

The bigger you dream the more it happens. I know it's hard to let go, but it's necessary. You have to let go of your old life, because you have to create space for your new life. Don't attempt to reconnect with toxic people from your past just because you're feeling lonely sometimes. Focus on getting better and attracting better. It's just going up. Don't look back and suffer diving in the pain from all the past happenings. Don't pay attention to any of your thoughts. Treat them like visitors. Let them in. But let them go soon again. Don't build air castles. Let life happen. If you plan you just steal the magic. Because then you have expectations. And if they are not fulfilled you just suffer. You feel disappointed. Let life happen and be the observer of the moment. Fully dive in the moment. Jump in it. 

A few days ago I was walking through the streets of Chiang Mai and I found this old second hand book shop again. I just love books. I still cannot believe that humanity was and still is able to write down their very own history and their personal thoughts. And everything was perfectly synchronised, because as I entered the book shop it started to rain like hell. It's still rainy season in Thailand, so the rain can be very heavy and intensive. I knew that it was a sign, so I had enough time to sit on the floor of this shop and have a look through all these old spiritual books. Yoga, Tantra, Meditation, Zen, Reiki, plants, old traditional Chinese medicine, enlightenment, awakening, chakras and way more. I got stuck in paradise. I wanted to buy like ten books, but I decided to just take two. After approximately one hour it stopped to rain. I completely forgot that there was time. By now I just look on my phone to see the perfectly synchronised beautiful numerology talking in signs of the angels that I'm on the "right" way connected to everything and everyone. The first book I bought is called "Tantra, Spirituality & Sex" from Bhagwan Shree Rajneesh. Just after a few pages I found out that this name was the name of my one and only guru Osho. I didn't read something from him for months now. As some of you maybe know I own like mostly every book of him. I really feel that he is one of the few who is able to transform his thoughts into the exactly right words for me. I just literally feel that he is speaking out of my soul. I read this book in two days. 

I never thought about life that easy since I read it. It was just so pure and easy to read what he was saying and everything was in the right time and in the right space. He says: "Sex is just the beginning, not the end. But if you miss the beginning, you will miss the end also." Everything is sex. Everything is made out of sex and everything comes with sex. This is happening. It's happening your whole life. You are searching for things through the unreal personality, which is not there, it's just a facade. If you don't get them, you will be in misery. If you get them, the misery will be deeper and more. Psychologists say because of this unreal personality, we basically never want to reach the goal - never want  to reach, basically, because if you reach the goal you will be totally frustrated. We live in hope, in hope we can continue. In hope we can trust. Hope is a dream. You never reach the goal, so you never come to realise that the goal is false. It's like you wish your whole life for wings and when you finally learn how to fly you are afraid to leave the ground. 

Tantra says truth can happen to you only if you are again grounded in the real. But to be grounded in the real you have to be very courageous with yourself, because the unreal is convenient and the unreal is so much cultivated, your mind is so much conditioned, that you will become afraid of the real. The unreal personality is always against enjoying anything. It is always agains YOU. You must not enjoy. It is always for sacrificing things - sacrificing you, sacrificing yourself for others. It looks beautiful because we have been brought up in it. Tantra says unless you can enjoy yourself you cannot help anyone to enjoy. Unless you are really contented with yourself, you cannot serve others, you cannot help others towards their contentment. Unless you are overflowing with your own bliss, you are a danger to society, because a person who sacrifices always becomes a sadist. Be aware of people who are always sacrificing. Just let go of your ego. Enjoy yourself. Be bliss-filled. And when you are overflowing with your bliss, that bliss will reach the others also. But that is not a sacrifice. No one is obliged to you, no one needs to thank you. Rather you will feel grateful to others because they have been participating in your bliss. Fuck yeah!

Tantra says: Unless YOU are filled with light, how can you help others to be enlightened? Be selfish - only then you can be altruistic, otherwise the whole concept of altruism is nonsense. Be happy. Only then you can help others to be happy. Tantra is not teaching sexuality. It is simply saying that sex can be a source of bliss. And once you know THAT bliss, you can go further, because now you are grounded in reality. One is not to remain in sex forever, but you can use sex as a jumping board. That's what Tantra means: you can use it. And once you have known the very ecstasy of sex, you can understand what mystics have been talking about - a greater orgasm. A cosmic orgasm.

Last night I experienced something very beautiful: I met two souls. Not to bodies or two people. I just met two unique souls. And we forgot completely that we were human and we were just exchanging tenderness. We were stroking each other, we were cuddling and smooching. And suddenly we were all kissing. And touching. And feeling. And now you start to transform this very beautiful happening into something pervert. Know the difference: Sex is just happening. But sexuality is something that your head is creating out of it. Sex is innocent. It's childish. It's like you are a child and you explore another human being the first time of your life. And it should always be like this. If you are in a longterm relationship or if you met someone just a few minutes ago. Explore. Create. Feel. It's just the fucking society who creates all this pervert thoughts in your head. You are not your head. Dive in the moment. Feel the ecstasy of being. Meet deep down on a complete new level. Get in contact with the soul. Let the energy flow. Go with the flow. Be the flow. Be the energy. Just be. Forget about your body. Forget about your ego. Forget about yourself. There is no time. There is just eternity. Love is just possible when you forget about everything you thought love was. Love is infinite freedom. Love is life. Take your time. Don't rush. Because when you rush you have a goal and you cannot be part of the presence. You wanna reach a goal. But love is present. Love is just. Love. I love you. I love me. I love love. I love the moment. I live in the moment. I am human. I am from the earth. I am a free spirit. 

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