In a world where everyone wears a mask, it's a privilege to see a soul.
Darling, not all positive change feels positive in the beginning. But you should listen carefully to everything that excites you, because these are the moments where your true love energy flows. Where magic happens.
I believe that all new beginnings are hard. You struggle and want to go back to your warm and cozy comfort zone. It's normal that you wanna go back to what you know. Everyone knows this. And it takes some courage to break out of your habits. Man it's fucking brave to jump in the unknown without even knowing what you are looking for. I think travelling opens up a whole new world of consciousness.
Beyond social conditioning and labels, we begin to see we are not even the body itself. But rather a series of sub molecular crystalline particles stored in the infrastructure of the physical form that serves as a host. When we are in our true power, authority and autonomy, connected to our core self, life simply becomes an "is" thing. We can leave ourselves alone and allow life to be what it is. We allow life to literally just happen. Through us. The natural flow of life can take shape of its own. Less human more being.
Me myself I am always striving for perfection. I want the perfect body. I want the perfect soul. I want the perfect job. And of course I want the perfect man next to me. Mr. Right. And I want it all. I want it now. And in between all these "I want" I sometimes forget that I already have everything. Just not all together. Because there is no perfection. You are just struggling because of the others. Because of the permanent comparison with others. Did you ever think about not just being THE best but maybe just YOUR best?
We are all given a life. We are all given a body. It's our choice what we make out of it. I really want to unfuck myself. Social conditionings are really freaking me out. Because I'm an empath and I take everything quite personal. First I thought I am just very sensitive. But now I know that psychologists have an extra designation for it. Being an empath can be both a blessing and a spell. I really want to take it a as a blessing. So I'm going to unfuck myself. My plan is to just be. I just wanna be. Less human more being. This is why I created this website. To share my third eye thirst with some of you out there. I'm just looking forward to find "the others".
So I just want to tell you how I unfuck myself: I just let go. If it comes, let it be. If it goes, let it be. You are the universe. Only society teaches limitation. There is no limit. The limit just exists in your head. And your head is just the top of your body. Your mind tries to control you. If other high sensitive empathic people are reading this right now - you know what I'm talking about. People always joked around with me that I'm OCD or neurotic. Well, I am. But just because I grew up in this world. Everyone in this world is her or his own kind of neurotic. A neurosis is like the most normal and best published illness. I think it's all about attention. If you don't like something, just take away its only power: the attention itself.
Focus on yourself. And be selfish. God damn yeah, be selfish. How can you ever love other people if you don't love yourself first? Thousands of gurus and awakening personalities been teaching this for light years. You have to get rid of thousands of years of conditionings. Because you are not here the first time. And please, be gentle. Be kind to yourself. Unfuck yourself. Don't let society fuck you again and again. Fool you again and again. I think most of us know about the power of advertisement and the power of politicians. They hypnotise us. And we are not strong enough to understand it. Unfuck yourself. Just let go of everything that drains your energy.
Since I know more about energy and our chakras many things and past situations make so much more sense. I can finally close some chapters I've been struggling and suffering for a long long time. I don't give a fuck anymore if I fit in something or some system or whatever. I don't have enough energy left for this shit. I love to swear. I feel with swearing I'm spitting out all the negative energy. Literally. I think one of the worst influence is social media itself. On one hand I wish daily for more followers to see my Instagram pictures so more people will be lead to read my blog. And on the other hand I don't give a shit and love to throw my phone just somewhere. I love to do this. This is another reason why I sold my iPhone. So I can throw my phone anywhere without destroying it. Hihi.
I truly believe that it's fucking important how your day starts. So when you wake up super tired because you watched the very last episode of The Walking Dead by knowing that there is this fucking important meeting at 8 in the morning - you're fucked. You will be The Walking Dead in person. So you snooze your alarm again and again. And then there is this tiny little window of preparation time left before you have to hustle to the bus. And then the bus is on delay. And you get angry and start to spread negative energy. Your aura gets dark even before you had your first coffee. Yeah, you need the coffee. You need the drug. It's like the only thing that you are looking forward to on a rainy October day. The first coffee at work. Man I know exactly how you feel, because I'm just talking about some past experiences out of my old life. Unfuck yourself.
I choose to get enough sleep so I don't feel tired in the morning. And by the way I don't have a relationship to any kind of these black mirrors for like one year now. I don't need a TV and I don't have a Netflix account. And I'm still alive. I unfuck myself because I know that I get affected by these screens. I know that I can get soaked in so fast without even noticing. So I just decide to put my phone in another room to charge over night and put it on flight mode before I go to bed. So the first thing I do when I open my eyes in the morning is - I see the sky. I see nature. And I inhale the innocent beauty of a new day. And then I mostly stretch in bed, because it's the best feeling ever to slowly awake every part of your body. Then I go to the toilet and after brushing my teeth I drink lots of water to fill my body with electrolytes. Mhmmm... Pure fresh water. Feel it leaking down your throat and arriving in your empty stomach. Then I meditate. I unfuck myself. Everyone has their own kind of meditation. There are lots. And I mostly do this to clear my mind because of all the "strange" dreams I had at night. Sometimes shit happens so that shift can happen. I think dreaming is a way of getting in touch with your fears. Your subconsciousness is trying to tell you that you should put more attention to these things. Just in metaphors.
"You'll never change your life until you change something you do daily. The secret of your success is found in your daily routine" - John C. Maxwell. What a nice quote. I believe in this. Since I do Yoga daily I really start to see results so fucking fast. A few days ago I could barely hold my own body weight on my elbows between two walls for like one or two seconds. The only thing holding me back from holding it for longer was my own mind. Unfuck yourself. I just let go of what I think is possible or not. Everything is possible. So two days later I could easily hold it for 20 seconds. Yesss!
Just try to do less. Don't be productive. Don't put pressure on yourself. Merge with your higher self, create inner peace and a life free from anxiety and toxicity. It's all good. Just believe in yourself and the sky will open up for you. Just believe that you deserve it and the universe will serve it.
You are immortal. You've existed for billions of years in different manifestations, because you are life. And life cannot die. You are in the trees, in the butterflies, in the clouds, in the rain, in the air, in the sun and in the moon. Wherever you go, you are there, waiting for yourself. You are just able to change your appearance, because the existence is limitless.
Don't ever save something for a special occasion.
Being alive is the special occasion.